As I watched, the wind would come and catch the sheer curtain and lift it away from the screen. Sometimes high. Sometimes just slightly. Sometimes vigorously. And sometimes gently. There was a chair just a couple of feet away from the window. The curtain would brush up against it and sometimes it would get wrapped around it for a minute until the next breeze pulled it gently away. And then, without warning, the curtain would be pulled back and sucked tightly to the screen.
God spoke to my heart. My life is like that curtain. It is a vapor. If it is free, the wind of God’s spirit lifts me and carries me where it will. There are times when He comes in power and carries me to the high places where I can touch lofty things and shake them for God’s kingdom. These moments are few and far between but, when they come, I know that only He could have taken me to these places.
The chair is like the people in my world. I brush against them – called to touch their lives briefly, gently. And then at other times when, for however long He sees fit, I am called to wrap my arms around them and shelter them for just a little while before letting go. Still brushing in and out of their lives, but not holding so tightly.
Then there are moments when God takes a deep breath and draws me back to His side. He holds me close against Him where I can hear His heartbeat. There I gain strength; there I renew my mind so that when He sends me back out into the world again, I will have new life to give.
This is my life in this community I call home. I am here to work with some people for brief seasons and others for deeper, longer, richer seasons. I just need to let go of all that restrains me and let Him take me where He will. And when He says it is time, I need to let Him draw me back to His side. These are precious times. I have witnessed things here that I never knew I would see. I have felt so deeply I wasn’t sure I would recover. But each time God fills me up to be able to do it all over again.
Where is your heart today?
Are you blowing freely in His wind? He has you. Let Him carry you to places you never knew.
Or are you tucked safely against the screen receiving new breath for a new day? Rest until He says go.
Are you tied securely to the porch? Look up to heaven and lLet Him loosen the ropes that hold you back.