This holiday season has been a challenge. I have not had anything to share because I have felt dislocated from my life. I hear words differently. I see faces differently. I feel pain differently. In ways I have felt disconnected from both my old life AND my new life. It has been so strange. And you know the old adage…I have said nothing because I had nothing good to say.
But as I rose to speak on Sunday morning I realized where this uneasiness is coming from. I don’t want my life to settle. I don’t want the snow to fall back to the bottom of the globe. I have never felt more alive. Yes, I have been stirred. My old self has bumped into my new self over and over again. I have had to reckon with where I came from and where I am now and where I am going. My life is not the same. And I don’t want to ever be the same again. Complacency is death to my soul.
Living life fully and intentionally will mean that I will get hurt. I will sometimes be alone. I will see the road ahead of me less and have to trust God more. But at least I will be alive. I am looking forward to what is in store for 2014 because I have learned that God’s mercy is great, His passion is deep, and His future is full of hope.
Many blessings to you in the coming year! May 2014 be a year of change and growth and life!
I love you all. I love you each.
Becky